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Chapter 39
I’ve been so lost in my thoughts I didn’t realize when Rose and Noel were in front of me trying to get my attention. It was only when Noel slapped me that I came back to reality and just like that the emotions came to me unbearably. My throat felt tight while my breathing got shallow as I struggled to breath. Chest tightening with anxiety I could hear Rose and Noel shouting my name as I sobbed. I could faintly feel one of their hands caressing my hair and I have just realized that I was sprawled out on the floor with my phone a few feet away from me.
I took in large gulps of air as I tried to stop my emotional scene. Taking the courage to take my phone, I pulled it slowly to my ear as I heard my panicking mom calling me through the line. With a shaky breath I answered.
“Lily are you alright?!” Mom’s voice pierced through the phone, making me cringe at how loud it was.
“I’m fine mom, please don’t worry about me ” my voice came out scratchy even to my own ears, I knew she could sense that I just had a breakdown from the silence she gave me.
“Oh honey, I didn’t mean to just sprawl all that on you . It’s just that he wanted to see you and I didn’t know what to tell him.” She sounded apologetic but I could hear the sympathy she had for the man that was supposed to be my knight in shining armor, the one to protect me from the bad guys, the one to teach me how to ride a bike, he was supposed to be my dad, but he wasn’t, not since the day he walked out on us. And just by her having an ounce of sympathy for him made me mad.
“You should have told him to go back where he came from, because I sure as hell don’t want to see him. I busted out. My voice sounded rough and I instantly regretted it when I heard her sharp intake of breath. Noel and Rose gave me a startled look as they have never seen me this angry. I couldn’t blame them since I knew how I looked right now.
” he looked like he had good intentions” she said softly trying to make me see reason. But I couldn’t and I took all of my frustration out on her. All I could see was her taking his side and not mine.
“Mom you’re just saying that because you still have a soft spot for that d!ck!” I yelled at her, veins popping out of my neck. Noel and Rose both gasped as they heard my angry tone at my mom, which was never done before since my mom and I got along and we never had an argument but now this man is trying to get in between us.
“Lily watch your tone right now, you’re not to old for a spanking!” She yelled back angrily clearly feeling disrespected. I took a few more gulps of air, trying to calm myself down. My mom wasn’t my enemy and it wasn’t her fault that she still might have feelings for a d!ck who doesn’t deserve any thing good in his life.
“Sorry Mom” I apologized and I meant it.
She sighed “It’s okay baby girl, but please think about it, at least for me? We all could get some closure and plus your sister wants to meet you”
“Well I don’t want to meet her” I said angrily. Why would I want to meet one of the main reasons my so called dad left me and my mom for? He chose her over me and never looked back. It was like I didn’t stand a chance against her she would always win. Oh who am I kidding she already won and she didn’t have to try.
My mom sighed like this conversation was frustrating her “Lily please just think about it”
“Okay ill think about it” I answered after a complete pause of 5minutes.
“Thanks honey, please stay safe out there you know how I hate that you’re alone, you’re so far from home, far from me.” She whispered. I knew she hated that I had to leave away from her. Like I said we we inseparable. She was my rock whilst I was hers.
“Mom I’m always safe no need to worry about me” I said trying to ease her mind
“Good to hear that, I’ll call you tomorrow” She said happily
“Okay mom bye” I told her already dreading the conversation we would have tomorrow. I knew she would ask what was my answer in meeting my dad and half sister and I quite frankly don’t think I would be able to answer it.
“Bye honey and please take care of yourself” she said strictly
“I will” and with that I hanged up the phone.
I took in a deep needed breath as I got ready to be bombarded with questions from Noel and Rose. Their faces says it all, they were afraid of what I was going to tell them and so was I, I was afraid they would convince me to go and meet them.
“Well go ahead and tell us!” Rose said impatiently while her brother on the other hand looked a bit lost
“My dad came back” I whispered to them, averting my eyes to stare at stain that was on the rug I never noticed until now.
“Oh wow” they both gasped out looking shocked
“That’s not all, they want to meet me” I told them trying to make it seem like it didn’t affect me. When I could barely stand as all I want to do was ball my eyes out and pretend that I wasn’t on earth right now. This week has been nothing but horrible, not only did Asher and I broke up now my dad is trying to bring his unwanted a$$ into my life
“Who is they?” Rose asked confused
“He brought my half sister with him” I let out
“Holy shit!, are you going to go?” This made me look at her. I knew this was coming but I didn’t have a proper answer to that. My head hurt even thinking about it.
“I don’t know, I mean why would he come back after all those years?” I asked in suspicion
“Oh girly, I don’t know but I think you should go and meet them” Rose said softly trying to not upset me
“Why the hell would I want to waste my time and meet those people who caused my mom and I so much pain?” I grumbled out.
“That’s the thing Lils you don’t know how much time you have left, no one does. What if you decide to miss this chance and something happens to them? You’ll feel regret and you’ll probably blame yourself, just please think about it ” Noel said which made me think about it.
” I hate that you’re trying to convince me to meet them” I sighed already knowing that he was right
“Plus you’ll be able to tell him what you wanted to a long time ago” Rose said
“You mean curse him out?” I asked already knowing the answer
“Ata girl” Rose laughed
“Ugh fine I’ll meet them, but if I regret it I’m so blaming you guys” I mumbled
“Fine by us” They said in unison clearly satisfied with my answer
“Wanna watch a movie to get your mind off of it right now?” Rose asked as she saw that I was deep in thought
“Ugh definitely” I said before going to do just that only for five minutes into the movie to fall asleep. The events of today finally caught up to me.
Chapter 40
I woke up to the glare of the sun slipping through the curtains. Lifting my hands to cover my eyes I realized it was stuck underneath Rose’s weight. She was fast asleep with her mouth opened as she snored facing me. I cringed at the pungent smell of alcohol mixed with morning breath coming from her mouth. Having no choice but to take my free hand and slap her across her face to wake her up. I knew I could have woken her up with a less painful way but just her reaction had me cackling so hard I sounded like a dying hyena.
“What the actual f*ck Lily!” Rose hissed as she rubbed her cheek. Was it bad that I didn’t regret it?
“Sorry your breath reeks and I need to free my hand you have held captive under your heavy a$$” I laughed as I pinched my nose trying to tease her further.
She rolled her eyes “My breath does not reek and you could have just woken me up with a shake on the shoulders or something” she whined before getting off my trapped hand
“But where would be the fun in that?” I asked well more like whined like a three year old. She looked at me like I was dirt and blew into her hand before smelling it.
“Oh shit my breath does reek!” She cringed as I busted into fits of laughter.
I nodded “Told you so”
“What the f*ck guys, why are you’ll up so early?” Noel groaned in tiredness. His sudden voice made me jump since he was directly at the back of me and I didn’t noticed until now.
“Jeez Noel I didn’t even see you there” I gasped out.
“Glad to know my wish came true to become invisible” he rolled his eyes.
“I wish you were” Rose said sassily
“One shut up rose I haven’t forgiven you yet and two your breath smells of dog shit so go do something about it before I kick you off of your own damn bed” He answered back before flying a pillow on her face. She let out a startled cry before getting up off the bed to head to the bathroom.
“You guys are so mean, leave my breath alone” was the last thing she said before she closed the bathroom door. Noel and I looked at each other in expectation before I rushed out to say before he got the word in
“You’re doing breakfast!”
He slumped in defeat before mumbling “Ugh fine”
As we got out of bed to head to the kitchen I realized that Noel was naked. Screeching in mortification I blocked my eyes and walked face first in the door. Muttering an ow I glared at Noel who was laughing hysterically. He shrugged when my eyes caught his. He didn’t try to hide his amusement neither did he try to block his naked self.
“Noel you nasty f*ck, why were you sleeping next to me naked?” I asked angrily pointing an accusing finger at him
He shrugged “This is how I normally sleep Lily, it’s no big deal, I’m not straight no need to think that my little soldier would stand up for attention for you”
“Noel I don’t give a flying f*ck if you’re gay or not, what you did is disgusting , how can you even do this and to think I slept by you like this” I let out a shiver of disgust as I thought about his naked body touching mine
“You weren’t complaining when you groped me during your sleep, I even recall you moaning out Asher.” He sang out. I let out an embarrassing cough as I tried not to cry of mortification.
“I did not” I whined trying to convince him. Maybe I did, oh god I hope not this is embarrassing
Noel let out a booming laugh”You didn’t, but you should of seen your face!” He said between hysterics of laughter. I rolled my eyes trying to not look fazed as I turned around to enter the kitchen. I could hear his footsteps following me as I hopped on a stool and sat down.
“I’m done with this conversation”
“Awh lils don’t be like that” He teased. I wanted nothing more but to fly a spoon or a spatula on his head, maybe then he’ll have dignity
“And cover your d!ck please you have scared me enough” I let out.
He saluted “I I captain” He went ahead and took one of the kitchen aprons and tied it around his waist. He then opened the fridge and bent down to get the eggs out, making his a$$ crack be fully in my view. I let out an irritated sigh as I lost my appetite.
” this wasn’t what I meant when I said cover up ” I said as a matter of fact he began to crack the eggs and put them in a bowl. He then added salt and pepper before beating everything together.
“Hey it’s covering up everything” he answered
“Your a$$ is still showing” I said and pointed at his a$$ to show him. But the idiot just let out a laugh before smacking his butt and posed for me. Sometimes I wonder how I’m friends with complete imbeciles.
“Suns out buns out, you can’t stop them from being free” He let out before cackling at the look on my face.
It was then Rose decided to grace us with her presence and sat on the other stool near me. She gave me that what the f*ck look as she pointed at her brother naked body which was only covered by an apron, which by the way didn’t do justice as we could all see everything.
I shrugged at her and waited for Noel to finally fry those eggs. I have been starving and I can’t remember when was the last time I ate. The smell of the frying eggs reached my waiting nostrils but instead of making my mouth water it made me feel the opposite. Before I could think I was in the bathroom kneeling down as I let out the contents of my stomach.
I could feel a hand rubbing my back as I vomited in the toilet bowl. I cringed at the after taste of bile as I got up to brush my teeth. Rose helped me as She soothed my back whilst her brother looked at me in confusion.
“What’s wrong lil are you sick?” Rose asked as she checked to see if I had a temperature
“No it was just the smell of the eggs” I said
“Since when does the smell of eggs make you nauseous” Noel asked confused
I shrugged “Don’t know, maybe since I haven’t eaten lately and I have been a little stressed with everything that’s been going on”
“Oh could be, well crackers for you then” Rose smiled trying to lighten the mood, I could only give her a single nod as I try to keep myself from vomiting again.
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